Love Life Ugh

Okay the one thing that seems to constantly confuse me is dating. Today’s dating should be easy for an introvert like me right? It’s all dating apps! No need for awkward conversation that makes you want to run and hide. It is up until you have to meet the person. Or they want your Snapchat. So many things happen at once when those six words pop up on the screen. “when do you want to meet?” Knee jerk reaction is to say never and move on with your life. But then the logical side of my brain says that we have to give this a chance or we will never find a guy or go on a date. (No that doesn’t matter but it’s nice to be liked by someone. You know?) The anxiety-filled part of your brain says to say that you don’t want to date. But that’s silly cause you arena a dating app for a reason right? to get dates. So that excuse doesn’t work. But this guy seems nice not pushy and into the same thing you are, so why not, right? Live life to the fullest and all that jazz. But once you guys set up a time to meet the nerve set in. And I should say that nerves for me are like normal nerves on crack and speed all at once. But I go and have a good time or a bad time and eight times out of ten I won’t talk to the guy again. BUT the nerves get to me. Then once the date is over I feel accomplished. I faced my anxiety and pushed past it, and it felt good when I did that. So I keep pushing through my anxiety just so I can show myself I can.

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